It's been a while, but here's an update on my life at the moment. Well, first off, some bad news. My boyfriend Justin, the only thing keeping me sane since February this year, decided to dump me about two weeks ago because he wants a wife and kids. It broke me. We'd talked it over before and he always said that he wouldn't mind adopting, that he could handle everything if it meant being with me, and I gave him the same vow...but it's his last surviving dream. For anyone interested, my last surviving dream is to be in a relationship with someone who I love dearly that would love me back and accept me, even with all of my flaws. I think I'm almost completely better now. I've been crying when nobody's looking, but it's stopped lately...mainly because I found something new.

I've always been lucky to have friends, but my friends have never been able to understand me or relate to me because of their uptight religious values and other stuff. Well, I've found new friends that do relate to me. They understand, and they actually include me in the group instead of just calling me when it's necessary for another person to join in. The point is that I've been staying hours after class hanging out in my friends' dorms, going to GSA meetings, and playing hackeysack for the past few weeks and I've never been so happy. So, to all my new friends, thank you all so very much. You might never get the chance to understand how much you guys mean to me, but maybe it'll leak out in time.